Chapter 6: Is this real?

Part 2



I wake up suddenly, my whole body saturated with sweat. The picture of Jared touching himself played all night in my head. I just can't understand why it was me making him horny. We're not very close or something, we just work together.
I stand up and get out of my bunk, stretching my arms. I walk towards the front of the bus to find Emma and Vicki sitting on the couch chatting. I wave at them both and walk to the fridge to grab the juice bottle. When I turn around, Emma stands up and gathers her things.

"I think I have to go, to much work. I'll see you later girls."

She leaves and I take her seat next to Vicki. Thank god she's here for some days and I have somebody to talk to. I open the bottle and take a big drag of juice. I sigh and vicki turns to look at me.

"Something bothers you, right?"

"Nah... It's from the sleep."

"I know you well enough to see when you're tired or not. Just spill it already."

My face flushes red as I try to master the courage to tell her what's going on.

"Last night I kinda... Caught Jared... Masturbating."

Her eyes grow big, my embarrassment growing more and more. I look down at my lap and sigh again.

"Ok. How was the show?"

"It's not time for joking."

"Well, how did this happen?"

"I just went to the back lounge to see if anybody was awake and I found him... You know in which phase."

"Eww! Just tell me he wore his clothes."

"OF COURSE HE DID! But still, it was disgusting to see him jerking himself off."

She takes the bottle of juice from my hands and puts on the table next to the couch. She turns at me and looks me in the eye.

"If it was that disgusting, why did you see the whole process?"

My face takes a crimson shade, making me look at my hands on my lap.

"Well, I heard him calling my name. He kinda... Was dreaming of me giving him a blowjob."

"WHAT?"

I put my hand in front of her mouth to prevent her from screaming even higher.

"Shut up! He doesn't know I was there! And nobody should know, so keep your mouth shut."

"But... How? You and him--"

"Yeah, me and him have nothing to do with each other. And it was a big shock for me too."

She lays on her back, touching her forehead and sighing.

"This probably means you're not the only one with a crush on him. What if--"

"No way! He hates me. He just can't have a crush on me."

"Ok, ok. But keep it in mind, you may not be the only one in love."

"Who is in love girls?"

We both turn to look at Jared standing next to the little kitchen. I feel all the blood leaving my face and hide my face in my hands.

"What's going on with her?"

"She just woke up, she needs time to adjust."

I lift my head to look at Vicki, a smirk plastered on her face. I then turn to look at Jared, seeing a smile form his lips.

"Ok. So, goodmorning Emma."

"G'morning."

I stand from the couch and walk towards my bunk so I can dress up and leave. When I reach my bunk, I turn to look back and see Jared looking at me, still smiling. This sight right now is the worst thing that could happen to me. I grab the first clothes I find in front of me and run to the bathroom, getting in and locking myself.

~~~

"Come on! Take your ass and come with me."

Shannon is on his knees in front of me, doing puppy eyes to make him the favor. It's been half an hour since he came here, trying to convince me to go with him to the set for Hurricane. Being the last time shooting was very exciting for him and he just wanted to go, as everybody did. The thing is that this last scenes involve Jared and Natalie and the only person who wanted to stay back to the hotel was me. It isn't because I saw Jared in... Personal moments, I just can't stand seeing him with another woman. Especially in moments concluding sex.

"I said no, for gods sake!"

"Please!"

He pouts and this makes me feel sorry for him without reason. Great, he convinced me once again.

"Ok, I'll come. But if I want, I will leave."

Shannon stands up and lifts me, spinning me around.

"Put me down, you shit."

"Hey, watch your language girl."

He puts me down and grabs my hand, dragging me with him.
When we arrive at the studio the scenes are gonna be shout, Shannon keeps dragging me with him. I look around to see the place. Every furniture is put aside, mirrors all around the room and a dark shade carpet in the middle. The dimly lit place makes it difficult for me to see where is who. The only things I see are cameras and many people moving around. A voice interrupts everyone and the place falls into silence.

"Ok, lets do it. It's just a scene and I hope it's gonna be done in less than an hour."

Jared bossing around once again. He walks to one of the crew members and then turns on the stereo, music filling the room. A minute later, Natalie emerges in the scene, making me feel disgust and only. When she takes her robe of, standing there with only her lingerie and high heels, I feel like throwing up at the exact moment. I drop to one of the chairs, my eyes not leaving what's going on. I turn to look at Shannon and he looks at Natalie, as the rest of the people does. I slightly punch his leg and he turns to look at me.

"Do you have any idea if Tim is here?"

"No. I think he went to take care of something, he'll come back later at the hotel."

I drop lower on my seat as everything is getting ready for the shouting. I close my eyes and pray to god to not let me do anything crazy. When I open my eyes a minute later, Natalie is lying on the floor, Jared on his knees between her legs, stroking them. I feel my cheeks turn red and anger fools me.
As everything is going on smoothly I try to keep my composure not to stand up and break everything. It's the first time I feel so jealous. And this time I'm sure that I'm jealous of Jared. Seeing him with another women, even acting to have some kind of sex with her, makes me green by envy. All this time I look numbly at them moving around on the floor, doing the same scene again and again. When I come back to reality, I look around to see everyone watching them with interest. Now she's lying on the floor again and Jared is above her, ready to kiss her. As he gets closer and closer to her face, I feel myself getting sick, and it isn't because of my fever. He gets closer and closer and suddenly their lips crush together, moving smoothly against each other.

I stand from my seat and hurry to the bathroom, not caring if I drop some things down on my way. Everything stops and I hear Jared calling my name. When I reach the bathroom, I close the door behind me and drop on my knees in front of the toilet. My vomit fills the toilet as I try to calm down, hot tears running down my cheeks. I hear the click of the door and seconds later Shannon is next to me, holding a towel to clean me and cradling my head.

"It's ok, shh..."

I keep crying and I start sobbing in his arms. He holds me closer and kisses my forehead, flushing the toilet at the same time. When he pulls back, he lifts my head and looks me in the eyes. My vision is distorted but I can see the worry in his eyes.

"What happened Emma? Are you ok?"

I wipe my tears with the backs of my hands and look at him, realising that what I'm going to tell him is something I've never admitted to myself.

"Shannon..."

"Yes..?"

"I... I'm... I'm in love."

His eyes grow big and his lips form a little smile.

"With Tim?"

I shake my head negatively and drop my eyes down on my lap.

"No. I'm in love... I'm in love with Jared."

Chapter 6: Is this real?

Part 1

"Mummy
I know that we have to talk for a long time now, but there's too much work and I don't--"

"CUUUUUT!"

I lift my head to see Jared standing from his seat, the frown he has for days now still plastered on his face. He walks towards these twins. The Porcelain Twins. Standing in the middle of an empty road, completely naked.

"I can't afford this shit anymore."

"Me neither."

Shannon appears next to me, dropping on his knees. He takes a cigarrete out of the packet and lits it up, taking a good drag. I sigh and drop lower on my seat, clutching tightly my mobile, my text message to my mum remaining unfinished.

"C'mon, let's do this one more time. We have to finish these scenes TODAY, for fuck's sake."

Jared says again. He is so dominating that it gets in my nerves. I turn to look at Shannon, adjusting the scarf around my neck.

"Is he always like this?"

"Trust me, that's only a little taste of his 'directing' side."

"Oh god..."

I start to shake from the cold, feeling my nose red as an apple. Shannon puts his hand on my forehead and then his lips.

"You're sick baby girl. You must get inside the bus."

I hold my forehead and feel the strong warmth that proves I have a fever.

"I wish I could, but if I get inside your brother will kill me."

"Don't worry, I'll take care of it. Go rest."

I stand up from my seat and just as I put my feet on the ground I feel slightly disorientated. Thank god Shannon is here to hold me on my feet. I turn to smile at him and then grab my things, ready to go.

"If he comes shouting at me, remember that it's gonna be your fault."

"Ok, now go and rest or else I'll keep you here with your high fever."

I walk towards the buss and just as I'm ready to enter, Natalie storms in front of me. She passes me without saying a single word. I turn to look at her as she walks towards the set.

"Bitch."

I mutter and keep walking towards the back of the bus.
It's been a long time since Jared decided to do his 'sex-scenes' for Hurricane with Natalie. But for an unexplainable reason, she was a pease of shit for my, so bitchy yet so beautiful. I'm jealous of her, I can admit that, but I don't know who I'm more jealous of. Natalie or Jared for being with her?

I drop my things on the floor and unlock my phone, dropping at the couch at the same time. I go to the unfinished text to my mum.

"--have that much time to even call you. I miss you so much. I hope you, Dean and Sarah are doing fine. And because Thanksgiving is close, please, don't think about dad's loss again. I want you to have a good time this year. I love you. Emma xx"

I hit 'send' and then throw my phone next to me on the couch, resting my head back on the pillows. I close my eyes and sigh, tired from the work and the fever. As I feel myself drifting to sleep, a warm hand strokes my cheek, making me open my eyes. A pair of bright eyes is looking at me and it makes me smile.

"C'mon, have a seat."

Tim drops next to me and hugs me close to him, kissing my forehead. He stills then, making me frown and turn to look at him.

"What?"

"You're burning."

"I know. Thanks to Jared and his sick ideas of shooting at night with this cold outside..."

He lifts my head and kisses my lightly on the lips. When he pulls back I frown again.

"What was that for?"

"To make you feel better."

A smile forms my lips and I lift myself, kissing him as well.

"You know that's out of the terms, right?"

"Yeah, but I had to. I couldn't hold back."

I smile once again and drop my head, snuggling in his embrace.
Being in a friends-with-benefits kind of relationship with Tim was something that suits me well. But lately there's something more than the sex by his side. This thing actually terrifies me, but there's still the hope that things are gonna stay as they are now.

~~~

I wake up at the sound of the bus engine. My head feels better than before. The painkiller did a good job this time. I stand up and get out of my bunk, stretching my arms above my head. I scan the bus, but everything is pitch black. I turn my head towards the back lounge, a small stripe of light showing underneath the door. I walk towards the door and tap my hand three times. There's no answer. What if somebody is in there and in trouble? I open the door to see Jared lying on the couch, his earbuds in his ears and his hand under his his pants, moving up and down. My eyes grow wide in the sight of him touching himself. He didn't even hear me open the door. I slightly close the door but keep my eyes on him. What the hell am I doing?

Watching live porn? Not actually, but still.

"Aaaah..."

I feel like throwing up and turn to leave, but his voice interrupts my action.

"Emma..."

I turn to look inside, my face red as a tomato. He still has his eyes closed, moving without control on the couch, panting. I keep looking at his face, so precious yet so disgusting.

"Oh! You're killing me!" That mouth of yours..."

I start thinking about him saying my name while jerking himself off. No, it's not me who he's dreaming about. There's another Emma here, too.

"Oh... Br-- Brunny!"

And that's when my eyes get the shape of plates. He's imaging me giving him a blowjob. I don't know if I should be happy or not with what I heard. A long groan interrupts my thoughts again, Jared climaxing and panting fast. When he relaxes, I close the door as fast as I can and run to my bunk, getting in and covering myself with my blankets. I turn from the other side and pretend to sleep, the door of the back lounge opening and closing, footsteps getting closer to my bunk. He passes from my bunk without stopping. A sigh of relief escapes my lips and I open my eyes again.

What do I live? Jared was jerking himself off while thinking of me. This thing is just crazy. I've admitted to myself that I have a crush on Jared, but now it was him thinking of me. Or I was fascinating? Having a fever can cause you many daydreams. But this one wasn't a daydream, I'm sure about that.


To be continued...